a) truth: i'm not very good at loving people, but i want to be better about sharing His love with the easily lovable and the fight-against-my-own-will unlovable. i wield love like a weapon: blessing some and spearing others, depending on my mood and circumstance. i want to sincerely, honestly use love as it was supposed to be--a gift. an undeserved gift.
b) i want to embrace awkwardness as the first step to healing and understanding. is it easy? no. but am i willing? yes. come on, let me just make a fool of myself as a sacrifice of pride and stubbornness and judgment and staunchly held fear.
c) i am loving the sunshine-y weather from the past two days--and hoping it will stay until july 8th at least. consistency of weather in the ozarks? ...the impossible could be made possible.
d) who is way behind on the who's who of engagements? war eagle. kanakuk. college. anyone. i'm behind. but congratulating amber & dustin, leanna & hugh, rachel & adam, and the last of the month, amber & caleb. leaving single life behind, leaving and cleaving. (p.s. i have missed the cupid shuffle dearly.)
e) i am missing war eagle way more than i could ever imagine. nostalgia hits me--especially with people packed and ready for (pre-)orientation, which i feel like i should be doing as well. and these missing pangs will hopefully disappear and complete focus will be turned on kanakuk and that next season of life. move forward without looking back, let's go.
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